i dont know what to be anymore, i feel so out of place in my world. i kinda just want to step out and leave everything behind. i know i would miss it but idk maybe i would finally be happy
Every time I even try to concentrate my mind goes blank and I start to cry. I don't know why. I feel so helpless and weak and don't know what to do. I can't think about anything properly and I don't feel anything. I don't feel love, sadness or even hate. Numb, I am numb. All I want to do is go for a walk and never come home.
Ok so what is our point in life? How are we meant to know what to do?
We are being asked to decide our futures now. Basically on the spot. Im too young and ignorant. How am I supposed to know?
What if I mess things up as per usual?!
I can't help but to be scared. I act happy and joyful...but inside, I'm dying slowly.
The pressure from people in my life is crumpling my conscious mind. I feel like i am being buried alive at such a young age. Never to re-emerge to the surface. Stuck beneath everyone for the rest of my life. What am I meant to know. What am I meant to do?
heyy which phone? my home one!! Ummm i am at jess's place for a few days just a out to paint actually. I dont hacvve a picture with me....call me on my mobile if yo wants this *points to sexy body** mmm baby! hahaha hows your holidays been ? xoxoxoxoxox
i want to see this sexy giraffe!! i dont know if you are gonna come on by 2morro but i meant to text you about the art thing if your mum actually called?? but yeah..... and appatrently you are coming goma with me elena and my fam on sat . xoxoxox
ohhk i have topo catch bus early in the morning idk where ut is!! Ummm can jess come ? Me and her were gonna go together ummmm? You catching the train home? xoxo